Eureka!! I am on to something!!

This is new to me so, bare with me.

"Ending your food obsession is all about learning to stay in the present moment"

OMG that is good. I was in the grocery store and looking at the Impulse Buy Shelf, choosing my impulse of choice when I saw the Good Housekeeping Magazine. First, I don't like housekeeping so I normally avoid this magazine, but for some reason I picked it up and threw it on the stack of snacks I was buying.

I was flipping through it this morning and found this article called: Sit. Stay. How to stop using food as an escape, and holy crap it’s amazing. Its like it was written for me but the reason I am sharing it, is because I think it’s for us all.
There is a quote I found profound. Its about knowing what to do when your going through terrible loss. She says this. " You stay with yourself. You sob, shout, feel as if you heart has a boulder crashing through it. You sit with your father. You listen to his sorrow, You get help from your friends. You notice that at the end of every day your still alive. And you especially notice that when you don't use food to shut yourself down, to leave your body, you actually feel more alive." Does that speak to me or what?!!
Not bolting-being awake without being drugged by food, alcohol,work,sex,money,drugs,denial,televison (whatever you use to keep from looking at what’s hard or hurtful) is definitely asking a lot. But staying where you are with what you feeling is the fist step in ending the obsession with food. Staying requires awareness of the desire to bolt, of the stories you tell yourself about the need to bolt. Staying means recognizing that when you want to bolt, you living in the past. Staying requires being curious about who you actually are besides just a collection of memories. Who are you when you sense yourself directly, immediately, right now, without preconception?
"That's when you'll discover if you stay: The you who is not your past, not your habits, not your compulsion. When you get to know that person, everything becomes possible, even living through astonishing pain.

You'll find then that feeling anything, including grief, is different from what you thought it would be. You'll find that you living a bigger life: one that includes vulnerability but also strength; one with a changed landscape-wider, richer, breathtaking. A life so wonderful you won't want to get out of it."

Good God, I am MADE of habits, compulsion...my past. Who am I without that? My true self.

Well I guess its time to get to know me. Me without the baggage. Me without fear. Me without hiding.

Let me introduce you. War weary, sad, hopeful me. Meet new hopeful, satisfied me.

I hope you get along.